David Walliams reveals suicide attempts in new autobiography
Thursday 04 October 2012
David Walliams shocked his fans this week as he revealed that he has attempted to commit suicide on more than one occassion.
The comedian made the revelations in his autobiography Camp David - released next week - in which he openly confesses that he tried to hang himself when he was 12, and then attempted an overdose at 18. He went on to reveal that the reason behind the suicide attempts was because of rejections from girls he fancied.
The 41-year-old funnyman’s accounts of his depression are well documented in the book in a number of diary entries.
'Just tried to hang myself. But I knew I didn’t really want to die, I just didn’t want to live. I took my weight with my feet and sat down' he said.
The Little Britain star went on to confess that he tried to atke his own life again nine years ago.
'Earlier I had come close to stepping in front of a train. I am in total despair.'
Although he has since been on anti-depressant medication, Walliams acknowledges that it is still a part of him.
'Wanting to die has always been in me' he added.
David was admitted to psychiatric hospital, The Priory in south-west London as he began to make it in the world of showbiz. The clinic has been a host to many stars who have struggled to handle the backlash of stardom including Kate Moss, Kerry Katona and Ronnie Wood.
'It was not just the terrible elemental sadness I felt, but fear. Fear of death, fear of life, fear of love, fear of everything.’
‘I spent night after night with no sleep, while the days were like a walking death’ he said.
Life appears to have gotten better for the Britains’ Got Talent judge though since he married Dutch supermodel Lara Stone in 2010.
Meanwhile, David also addresses his sexuality confusion in the book, revealing that he had some gay experiences when he was younger and that they left him ‘confused.’
'I’m glad I talked honestly about my childhood sexual awakening because I think there’s plenty of other people out there who will be reading it and say, "That’s quite normal, that happened to me. It confused me too.''
Camp David is set for release on October 11th.